Something Tells Me I’m Going to Fail At This

I am sitting here, trying to come up with a post to write for today and realizing that I may have been a bit hasty in deciding to post every day this year. My last post was less than a hundred words, I believe, and I really didn’t say much of anything. I’m also a bit afraid that this post is going to be more of the same, despite my not wanting it to be. Anyhow, we’re going to discuss why I thought that doing this was going to be a good idea, and what is currently causing my anxiety to skyrocket – and maybe a possible solution…beyond my banging my head on the concrete floors in our apartment.

I decided to try and post every day this year because I want to get in the habit of writing regularly. I am tired of having unfinished written works laying around and knowing that it’s my fault that they’re like that. I want to finish my works – as I cannot share them with anyone until they are completed. Plus every book, article, website, etc. about writing says that in order to become a better writer, you have to write and I hadn’t been doing that. This idea is my hopefully non-foolish attempt at accomplishing both of these things…but we will see how it goes.

Moving on, my anxiety levels are sky-high. My main method of dealing with it is currently not working – well, that’s not technically correct. My TS3 game isn’t loading, so it would work if it did. :( I know the solution – get a new computer, but I won’t have the funds for it until that thing I mentioned in an earlier post happens. So I honestly don’t know what to do – but I am open to suggestions.

3 thoughts on “Something Tells Me I’m Going to Fail At This

  1. Maybe you don’t need to write a public blog post every day. Sometimes writing a private entry in a word document or even writing in a journal can be a great activity. Especially if trying to keep posting every day is causing more anxiety. Just find the right balance for you. :)

    It’s hard when computers and technology get old and don’t work as they used too. :( I was having some problems on my old laptop, and I read a few articles with tips on how to speed it up a little, and they seemed to have helped. :) That may not work in every case, but couldn’t hurt to try. :)

  2. I’m also in the same boat with writing, however, blogging every day doesn’t really help me LOL. Currently, I’m writing a Final Fantasy XV fanfic, little by little, and I’m not in a rush with it because *cough* no one reads them even if I already uploaded them in public. XD

    When it comes to new computers, have you ever thought of paying for one by installment? (paying a certain fee monthly until you pay off the entire cost). I’m doing that with my laptop right now when I directly ordered it from Dell. Back in 2015, I started paying it off $55/mo. And then by the end of 2017, my payment got lower and I’m now only paying $45/mo. It may take me awhile to pay for my entire machine but it really helps me a lot with my small budget. ^^

    I think Amazon is doing the same thing now with their electronic devices if you order it from them. I know they do that with their Kindles and Fires, but not sure about PCs or Macs. Instead of you paying for the entire price at once, you can pay by installment. Hope this helps. ^^

    1. I’m supposed to get a computer when my Uncle opens his business in either April or May, I just have to be patient. So not my strong suit…haha. I’ve not played/done anything with FF in forever. :/ I’ve gotten a bit behind in gaming and the whole stories.

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