Since I have posted the “Hello, World” entry which should have closed commenting, I have managed to complete a couple of pages mainly due to the fact that they were technically completed prior to the posting of the “Hello, World” entry. I am taking my time on each one, because I want to make sure that they do not contain any mistakes and that everything looks the way that I envision in my head. My main reason for being so concerned about this is that I am almost 100% certain that this will be my legacy to the future. You are probably thinking, why does she feel this way? There are two main reasons – first is that I turned forty the last 4th of October and while I could still potentially have children, it is not likely due to certain circumstances. The other reason is that every single time I open the notebook that contains my…I am not sure what to call it, current WIP nothing comes to mind – it is completely and totally blank. I seem to have a major case of Writer’s Block, and it is, quite honestly, making my anxiety even worse. I have been either reading stories or writing various things for as long as I can remember. In fact, that is one of the main things people tend to remember about me – that I am sweet, quiet1, sensitive, and that I am either reading something or writing something down in a notebook. In fact, I currently have a small dresser drawer filled with journals, and two drawers of a filing cabinet filled with notebooks. I must remind myself of this when I am in the stationary department of any store – mainly Walmart, Target, or Dollar Tree – because all three have extremely cute notebooks and journals. It is the hardest to refrain from buying them at Dollar Tree because everything is only $1 – but then again, they also sell bath bombs and other fun bath items…so I guess it is not an awfully hard choice. I will try to film a Dollar Tree haul at some point in the future and post it on my YouTube channel.2
As for the title, it is part of a quote by John Wayne and I thought it was perfect since I have been absent from blogging for almost two years and have been feeling more than a bit anxious and nervous about the whole process. I was not sure if I could learn all the new trends and rules or if I even wanted to try. I had planned to renew both this site and Bookishly when the time came, provided that I had the funds. 3 However, since Bookishly was a .co, I didn’t have the funds to renew it with that extension. So it’ll be moving to a new home, but I will tell y’all more about that at a later date. It was not long after all this happened, that I came across this quote by John Wayne.
Courage is being scared to death and saddling up anyway.
It made me realize I was being ridiculous – especially since all the front-line workers go in to face COVID-19, people enlist in the military knowing that at any moment they could be called to fight a war, or all of the African-American and Asian-American4 people who live everyday not knowing if someone is going to kill them simply because of the color of their skin. I remembered all of this, and thought that my being worried/scared about coming back to blogging was insignificant, and that it was one of the best ways for me to express my opinions and thoughts about what is going on in this crazy mixed-up world of ours. This means that, unlike previously where I hesitated to discuss controversial topics like religion, politics, race, or even sex – I will be discussing them and stating my beliefs on certain topics while doing so. It is my sincere hope that the readers of my posts are mature enough to have civilized discussions in the comment section. For those who are not interested in such topics, do not worry as I will still be posting on such things as my daily life, my search for a new puppy, my attempts to do a variety of tasks – attempt to make various recipes and decorate my apartment on a very limited budget. The purpose of this blog, this site, is to have a safe place for all the pieces of me…even the ones that are not as polished.
Forgive me if there is sometime between this post and the next one – I’m also in the process of getting Bookishly up and running, while trying to make a decision regarding the purpose of Bookishly and it’s future content. As for this site? Well, I have a list of posts to write – so I’m going to get started on those. Bye!
- Only when you first meet me. ↩
- This is a distant future item, as I need to get a camera to film with. ↩
- This site is renewed until 13 August 2022! Yay! ↩
- I apologize if the terminology is incorrect, I’m not 100% how to phrase it. If you fit these categories and are offended, please comment the correct terms and I will correct it immediately. Thanks! ↩