Jessica, circa 2009
To begin with, I wanted to have at least one photo on here that didn’t include a Snapchat filter. I also wanted to include one in which I was an actual adult.
Anyhow, for those of you who are completely oblivious, my name is Jessica Mezo and I was born on October 4, 1980 – which currently makes me 37 years of age and a Libra. I currently reside in a small town in Southern Illinois with my mom, our dog Colby, and her leopard gecko, Picasso. I am currently in limbo, regarding both my education and my employment as I am waiting for certain things to happen so that I can proceed. I am currently
blissfully single and still searching for the one guy that I can spend the rest of my life.
Despite the fact that I don’t have the slightest clue what direction my life is going to take me, English and Literature are one of my passions. I feel that the ability to write and express yourself is something that should be appreciated, and I think that the art of writing is slowly becoming a lost practice. I will admit that I do not spend as much time as I could on my handwriting. If you would like to help me with this, or if you feel the same, then click here to learn more.
By this point, I guess that I should tell you why I blog, why I am constantly trying to create a website. Blogging allows me to express my thoughts and feelings in a safe, non-destructive manner. This is especially important to me, as I have seriously considered more destructive manners such as suicide. I will admit that at times the commenting part of owning a blog, the thought of having perfect strangers judge me and know my innermost thoughts and feelings, makes me a bit more like the shy, insecure girl that I was back in High School. Despite this fact, I still find it a lot easier to express myself in blog posts than I do in real life. At times, I would have to say that I am definitely more confident online, more of the person that I am on the inside. I am hoping that owning a blog, owning a website, will provide me with a sort of sanctuary, a place where I can finally discover who the girl in the mirror truly is…who I am truly meant to be.
Unlike most girls. I am not that picky of an eater. I definitely prefer to eat healthier and to make choices that are beneficial to both myself and the world around me. I would love to become a vegan – but I live in an area that is not exactly supportive of alternative lifestyles. As a friend of mine once told me, We eat beef around here. However, despite this fact, I definitely prefer chicken and fish over beef and pork. I also prefer fresh produce over canned – Canned seems to have a metallic-taste but it may be just me. Frozen produce is definitely preferable over canned, and sometimes it is the only type available. I have cut down my consumption of soda drastically, but sometimes I get a craving for a vanilla Dr. Pepper. Junk food – in the form of chocolate and ice cream – is something that I will probably never quit eating. As Erma Bombeck said, Seize the moment. Remember all those women on the Titanic who waved off the dessert cart. Despite all of this, I maintain a semi-regular food journal and try to make healthy choices.
My life is somewhat dull, if I’m to be completely honest, I spend my time on social media – feel free to follow me on everything and to like my page on Facebook. When I’m not on social media, I am doing one of three things – playing , follow my misadventures at Sleepless Sims #teenmomchallenge; reading or attempting to write.
I love learning about other people, their lives, and their cultures. I feel that being a part of a variety of social networks and being a blogger has helped me expand my knowledge of not only myself but the world around me.
I have a tendency to speak without thinking, and a tendency to seem totally random. I promise that although I may not make perfect sense at all times, what I am trying to express will become clearer. It seems that my brain works quicker than I can talk or write. In the past, I used to try to get everything out and I had a tendency to be misunderstood. I know now that I must speak with confidence, and that people will either listen or not.
I am constantly writing things down – everything from websites to visit even ideas for blog entries. As a result of this, I tend to go through notebooks, paper, rather quickly – much to my Mom’s disgust.
I have learned that dwelling in the past is not the best of ways to make improvements in your life, and that at the end of it all, no one is going to care if I did ——- when I was younger. Most people only care about how you are living your life at the current moment, and I do not have a criminal record – so it doesn’t really matter what happened 5 years ago, or even 15 years ago. It doesn’t matter because I am no longer the same person, I am a lot more mature than I was at that time and becoming wiser with every moment.
I am beginning to learn that it is okay to be goofy, to do fun things, to act like a child every once in a while. However, I also believe that there are appropriate times and places for every activity and action, and every reaction. Sometimes the secret knowledge that you are wearing sexy lingerie or a pair of mismatched socks can be enough to help you through a difficult situation. After years of blending into the background, I am beginning to realize the benefits of standing out. Despite this, I still feel most comfortable with my crazy side safely hidden.
This about me is a bit longer than I had originally intended, as, like many other people, I am not very comfortable talking or writing about myself. I am also never quite sure how much information that I should give. How much information is needed to spark an interest? I still do not know, and I do not think that I ever truly will. If you are truly interested in learning more about me, I suggest that you read my blog entries.